Even though I miss you so much still, I am no longer losing sleep over you and I cannot explain how good that feels.
You know how it will say on facebook “this person liked this page” and show a little preview summary thing? He liked a porn page…and I’m like okay #1 gross and #2 if you didn’t fuck things up you wouldn’t need that page. And I’ve come to the conclusion that boys will always fuck things up and ruin everything basically.
So I had a dream about this guy that I dated over the summer last night. I was at his job and he was helping customers and I was just waiting and waiting until finally I just walked out and left. I started crying for some reason. He ran after me, turned me around and asked me what was wrong. I think I told him he messed things up or something along those lines. He wiped a tear from my face, hugged me tight and said, “come on”, grabbed my hand and we walked back to his job together. It was so weird and sad and ugh. I think about him enough and I try so hard not to & now he’s invading my subconscious too?? Like please get get of my dreams I’m trying to get o over you.
I woke up this morning feeling really bitchy. Not like mean bitchy but good bitchy like I’m a bad bitch, fuck with me kind of thing.